How Do I Stay Happy? Soul Swinging In The Night Rain

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It tickled and danced around us. Not like the day rain. She was hell. She was too strong, too stingy, and overbearing. She was confused, stuck, searching and not finding. And I saw all these other people watching the day rain too. The doorway guy, the booth one, and that old man on the stool. Did they see what I did? Were they also hoping the rain would wash away something it did not? Or maybe it’s just a reflection of who I was with my face mashed against that faded wooden frame, pushing forward to feel her spray. Why am I always seeking that, that just-out-of-reach thing, that which will make me deeply happy and calm?

What am I lacking right here and now? I’m traveling the world, have no health, money, or relationship problems (besides the one I create in my mind for my own dramatic enjoyment). I do what I want, when I want. I’ve three unbelievable kids and the greatest gift in this Universe husband, and still, I gaze at the rain and feel a desperate emptiness gnawing in a silent whisper of desire.

Introducing Healthy Weight Loss- Finally Ready To Share How I Lost (and Keep Off) 28 Pounds

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Little known fact: My entire life I never wore shorts or skirts cuz my legs were perpetually covered with scabs and sores from me scratching my legs. Emotional stress, we’ll say. And then, I felt too fat. I didn’t wear a bathing suit for years, and now, 28 pounds later, I love my legs to death. This is a new love affair for me so I photograph it here and there.

I’m starting to share my Healthy Weight Loss ideas and tips, struggles and inspirations, because I want that interaction, discussion, and community in my life. I’m not selling anything or promising anything. I’m not. I actually don’t promise anything to anyone, not even to myself. I say in all of my rawest honesty, “I will give it my very best” or “This is important to me so I’ve decided to commit my efforts and determination on this,” but no promises, cuz that would be, well, a lie.

I don’t know if my marriage will last until death do us part. I adore the guy, and except when he’s a major jerk or I’m an impossible bitch, or we’re both both of those things simultaneously, married life is rather lovely. I don’t know if I will always be there for my kids. Well, in all honestly, I know I won’t be, for three reasons:

The Homeless Guy and I Got Lost- 58 Days Later

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“She’s [gabiklaf.com] been down for almost two months, which has taught me a lot about letting go of my baby, what defines me, and my ego; and now,  I sit and look at her again and wonder how to touch her again. Like the first time again, I want it to be so romantic, just perfect.”

– an email to a new online friend

And so, here I go….

There’s a homeless guy at the end of the street who directs the traffic. He stands there, very intense and passionate, doing his job. Florescent pink plastic whistle in mouth, wad up stack of paper in right hand, arms flapping all over the place. No one pays him to do it. I don’t think anyone pays attention to him either.

I do. I love the homeless man. Yesterday, when he tried to help me cross the street, I smiled and looked the other way. He made me uncomfortable. Tomorrow, I’m going to cross the street a few times just so that he can direct me safely to the other side. Just to thank him. Just to make him feel important. That’s what I told my kids when they asked me, “Why does he do it if no one pays him?”

Who Am I, Today (Personal Journal Entry from July 27, 2012)

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So, I’m constantly changing, and acutely aware of that. Today, I am not who I was 10, 20 years ago; and not who I was 10 months, weeks, or days ago. I’m not. Gabi’s still there- her journey, her pain, her memories; but the way I perceive things, the reasons I cry, the things that bring me peace and joy are like the breeze that now brushes my face, ever-changing and fresh. So, I thought I’d try to note me, who I am, today. Take a snapshot. Not who I want to be, not who I want others to see me as; but me, naked, as I am.

It’s a fun list. It’s a liberating exercise. Taking stock, reflecting, being aware. So, here goes…

Avoiding Who I Am

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Clean Your Soul Course in Siem Reap, Cambodia, Me not running away from Me

Isn’t that funny? I teach enlightenment and all about creating more light in your soul, and here I am avoiding mine. I’ve been meaning to write all the amazing spiritually things I know for months  now, and I’ve completely ignored this site.  I was invited to start teaching my Clean Your Soul Course here in Cambodia and wrestled it for weeks. Why? Why would I run away from who I am? Why would I try to escape the core of my being? Why would I not want to teach others the very matter that I believe in most? Why would I consciously choose to not engage my heart and soul in what I know will help it breathe? I’ve come up with a few ideas….

Let’s Set The World On Fire

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Me, setting the world on fire, alive....

It happened again tonight. I can’t control it, and neither would I want to, if I could. It hits me. Like a black cast iron pot in the dead of night, it bashes into my head. BOOM! And, I can do nothing, nothing, but fall deep, deep into that  abyss of dark, rich, Egyptian light. There is no other way for me to describe it. It is a dark light for my soul knows it. Very intimately.

It happens…and I’m gone. I’m somewhere else. My heart flutters (glitters actually), my soul leaps, my frequency blurs and hits a light, high, iridescent buzz.  And it seers right through my entirety. It’s happened only twice before in my life but it happened tonight, and I’m a spark plug. I’m totally outta here.

A Glimpse into My Family Life

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I am not just Gabi Klaf, the family therapist. That actually is a just a tiny sliver of who I am. I am Joseph and Batya’s daughter. Sigal and Mickey’s sister, the daughter-in-law and aunt to Kobi’s beautiful extended family. I am a whole person with a family, dreams, fears, plans, and pet peeves. I am a lover of books and music and exercise; the wind, the sky, and Mother Earth. I am scared of the ocean, of being rejected/abandoned, and of being alone in the dark. I love time alone, eating raw foods (and non-raw food! I guess all food!), and re-inspiring and re-discovering myself. I love traveling the world and having no obligation to anyone but the wind. Here are some videos that reflect my light, my life, my family…. Enjoy.