Chronic Pain and Body Malfunction- What The Hell Do I Do With Myself- Part 3

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Slowly it’s seeping in how bad things are in my body, how off my entire body is. Maybe a reflection of my soul-state, maybe an expression of emotional unresolved issues I’m still carrying around, and/or maybe just evidence of not using my body-machine correctly.

It’s not pretty but so it is. And it’s totally bashing in my ego and all the “I Am Healthy” messages I thought I was. And I was, I was, and I am but this is something deeper, a different section of being blind to my own healthy development. And here is another video of my trying to figure out What The Hell Do I Do With Myself.

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We take it for granted that we know what to do with our physical bodies, that we know what to do. I actually never even thought of it before this. I get up, I do what I do, I exercise, I make healthy choices or I don’t, and I go to bed. Now, I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t know how to be IN MYSELF and that is maddening.

I think not knowing is marvelous, for in that space of not-knowing, we find out new information, new options, new truths, new data to fill the void that was once filled with Knowing. And yet, knowing that does not make the empty hollowness of it all any easier. But it does even so. Your thoughts. I’m here.

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It’s part of a healing series: When Your Body Doesn’t Do What You Want It To.  I’m sharing the entire journey to document it for myself (because I WILL be victorious in this battle) and to inspire others to learn, grow, face it, overcome this physical pain, that emotional deep-rooted issue, this addiction, and that insanely normal every-day family life situation.

Part One: Mommy Tummy and Other Plumbing Frustrations 

Part Two: Greatfulness, Overwhelm, and Determination

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Gabi is a certified trauma therapist, family communications expert, energy healer, and life coach with a Masters in Psychology. She shares her personal life stories and insights to inspire others to share their honest, neurotic selves and do all that is necessary to Clean Your Soul. She believes that all of us are on our journey from pain to the light, and by staying inspired and aware, we can all reach our fullest, cleanest, most beautiful free selves. Gabi does remarkable work helping you get over addictions and overcome losslove yourselffind meaning in life again, clean deep-rooted issues and traumas, and be victorious inyour everyday insane family life,  and bring Buddhism’s peace into your life.  Gabi takes a very limited number of one-on-one clients for transformational parenting, family, life, and trauma therapy. You may reach Gabi directly at gabiklaf@gmail.com, subject line: coaching inquiry

 

 

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Comments (6)

  • Laurie

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    I feel VERY much the same as you. What I have decided to do to help is to buy a treadmill, set up your computer on it and walk while you do a lot of your “easy” work. You can walk at a mile or 2 an hour and function. The brain actually works better when the body is moving. When you are sitting, set a computer alarm to go off every 15 minutes…. even if you just stand, sit… stand, sit and put your arms over your head once or twice. I read a great book, I believe it was “Sitting kills, moving heals”– written by a NASA scientist. She writes that lack of gravitational stress on the body increases inflammation and accelerates aging…. that when you sit alot, it is more important to challenge your body often by standing up than to sit for a long time and take 1 walk. It’s the compensation mechanism to gravity that helps keep your health. It’s a small book, but worth reading.

    Do you know what blood type you are? Type A’s tend to have thicker, stickier blood, which is even more risky for a sedentary life style.

    Be sure to have an anti-inflammatory diet (which includes ditching gluten and depending on what blood type you are ditching most grains)…. and don’t forget to stay hydrated!

    Take a peek at my website for some applicable information and more about information from that book. Hope these tid bits help.
    If you learn of any great tips, please let me know as I know exactly what you mean about too many hours sitting down… I read, I write, I meditate etc……. sooo many people are in the same boat.

    You have the motivation….. and now you have a few tools… what do you think about the treadmill idea? Laurie

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    • Gabi

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      thank you dear laurie. i’m 100% with you that sitting all day and then going to the gym is not the answer. lauren calls it ‘motion desert’ love it. i have a strictly standing station now so that the forces of gravity can strengthen my spine. i am moving all the time, so am much less effective and much less online. i even bought a tablet so that i can change positions and talk into it rather than type all the time. (the amount of corrections i have to do sometimes makes me wonder if it’s worth it but still…. it’s all part of the life change). i work a bit, go to the kitchen, work a bit, dance to a song, work a bit, clean up a bit…. very motion-conscious. i love the treadmill idea which is not an option right now for twenty reasons, one of which we are nomads, so…… yes, like you i read, write (tons), meditate (in theory, every day)…. i know.

      i’d love to hear more. please put any direct links here in another comment. don’t be shy. i’m all about bringing in the most real information so refer me to what you think is best. thank you dear one. i suggest you look up holy shift alignment for painfree living in facebook. lauren is amazing.

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  • Christy Garrett @ Uplifting Families

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    I too suffer from chronic pain and it is not easy to deal with. I don’t know how to tell you to fix the problem other than to work closely with your pain management drs. I would be willing to talk to you in a more private setting, if you are interested.

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    • Gabi

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      hi love. thank you christy. i am sorry you are also suffering. i know there are so many routes to the light. i am thankful that mine was chronic for only a bit and now is on and off and also thankful that i found my route, slowly but surely out of the pain. i will beat this scoliosis and humped back. i will love, and so will you. thank you for the offer. i am not able right now to take in any new information regarding how to fix me. i need to stay focused on what i’ve already have and do that first deeply, and then, maybe get more. thank you dear christy. gabi

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  • amber

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    Oh Gabi you are so beautiful and through this suffering your soul still shines so bright

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    • Gabi

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      how did i get so lucky to have you rooting on my side dear amber? thank you love. gabi

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