Slowly it’s seeping in how bad things are in my body, how off my entire body is. Maybe a reflection of my soul-state, maybe an expression of emotional unresolved issues I’m still carrying around, and/or maybe just evidence of not using my body-machine correctly.
It’s not pretty but so it is. And it’s totally bashing in my ego and all the “I Am Healthy” messages I thought I was. And I was, I was, and I am but this is something deeper, a different section of being blind to my own healthy development. And here is another video of my trying to figure out What The Hell Do I Do With Myself.
We take it for granted that we know what to do with our physical bodies, that we know what to do. I actually never even thought of it before this. I get up, I do what I do, I exercise, I make healthy choices or I don’t, and I go to bed. Now, I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t know how to be IN MYSELF and that is maddening.
I think not knowing is marvelous, for in that space of not-knowing, we find out new information, new options, new truths, new data to fill the void that was once filled with Knowing. And yet, knowing that does not make the empty hollowness of it all any easier. But it does even so. Your thoughts. I’m here.
It’s part of a healing series: When Your Body Doesn’t Do What You Want It To. I’m sharing the entire journey to document it for myself (because I WILL be victorious in this battle) and to inspire others to learn, grow, face it, overcome this physical pain, that emotional deep-rooted issue, this addiction, and that insanely normal every-day family life situation.
Gabi is a certified trauma therapist, family communications expert, energy healer, and life coach with a Masters in Psychology. She shares her personal life stories and insights to inspire others to share their honest, neurotic selves and do all that is necessary to Clean Your Soul. She believes that all of us are on our journey from pain to the light, and by staying inspired and aware, we can all reach our fullest, cleanest, most beautiful free selves. Gabi does remarkable work helping you get over addictions and overcome loss, love yourself, find meaning in life again, clean deep-rooted issues and traumas, and be victorious inyour everyday insane family life, and bring Buddhism’s peace into your life. Gabi takes a very limited number of one-on-one clients for transformational parenting, family, life, and trauma therapy. You may reach Gabi directly at firstname.lastname@example.org, subject line: coaching inquiry
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