The Last Meditation- When A Person Humbly Devotes Himself To Serving Others

Written by Gabi on . Posted in Vipassana Meditation

 

And she bowed. She did. She bowed to every single one of us.

This is it, the last meditation, and we’re already talking again, so the intensity of it all has gone down. I’m not allowed to record in the hall, nor to talk in the parameter of the meditation hall, though we’ve resumed eye contact and communication again.And so, I just bolted out of my cushion when the last chantings stopped, I bowed, and turned on the camera.

You can see the red blotchiness of my face, a new sign of things being released in me from the vippasana (since, gone) and the tiredness of that 6-am-been-awake-for-two-hours-but-so-grateful look about me. But what is far more significant is what is going on behind me: our manager is bowing to each participant.


This is new and beautiful and touching. She is honoring each and every one of us for being us, for doing that journey, for standing up to it, for not backing down from facing ourselves. She is so modest, so happy to serve, so honored to have been there for us. Both female managers were just amazing, like a camp counselor who was really there for you in your intense short-lived overnight love and hate wars, they were there.e

Remember her telling me that she is my servant? Yeah, King Solomon spoke of that too, of the capacity to serve others, that that quality alone, that a king should always seek opportunities to serve others, is invaluable in becoming the greatest you you can be.

And so, also note, 8 foreigner girls, the other 80+ are Khmer (Cambodian people) and so lovely. The shakiness is me trying to tell a few kind souls who are offering to take my picture for me that I don’t need the help, and laughing nervously for what can you say when you can’t say with words?

Ever bowed to someone? I hadn’t until I started living in Buddhist countries. It is so glorifying to bow to someone else, to put yourself below another and show humble gratitude. But not the “I’m a mom and so I am a slave to everyone around me” servant, the I want to do this for another person who owes me nothing, and I owe nothing to, and to that person, I wish to humbly serve.

Your thoughts, or your silence, either way I love it.

Gabi

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Comments (4)

  • Jessica

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    I’m happy to have found your post. Thank you for sharing your experience!

    I have been very keen to try the Vipassana meditation technique and to have my first experience be at the center in Battambang(I live in Phnom Penh). Do you have any other advice for a first-timer? Something you would have done differently? Or what to expect? Did they have instruction in English also? I’m a bit nervous if you can’t tell, haha!

    Thanks so much for your time and best wishes to you 🙂

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    • Gabi

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      hi jessica. i’m so sorry it took me this long to get back to you. i’m so honored that you found me here, online. as a therapist who has tried on herself every therapy you can name, i was shocked how powerful vippasana was for me. as a soul, i got so much relief, so much insight, so much more than i could have ever imagined. i do hope you do the vippasana jessica. you can register for free to the center in battambang but i suggest you sign up two months in advance as spaces fill up. the center is amazing, peaceful and what to expect is soooo different for every soul that enters. all instructions were in english too (unless on the site when you register it tells you ‘khmer only’ which i don’t think they ever do in battambang). a new couple has moved back to cambodia from australia and they are there i think at every retreat these days- they are marvelous. i was sooo nervous. read more of my posts before and after vippasana. i’d love to hear your thoughts (comment on the posts like this) and i will always write back. tell me when you sign up… can’t wait to hear. much love to you jessica. gabi

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      • Jessica

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        Thank you so much for your kind response. Words from experience people are always comforting and I appreciate the time you took to answer my questions! I found your post via twitter by the way!

        I’ll have to sign up soon! I’m awful at doing things in advance, but I know the experience will be very enriching for me, so time to ‘bite the bullet’ so to speak!

        All the best 🙂

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